Judged by the “Judge” and everyone else.

As a parent of an addict, I am constantly judged. I am judged if I do too much and judged for not doing enough. All of this “judging” comes just from the fact that I have a child that is an addict. Nothing more. None of these self proclaimed judges “know” what I have or …

The Heartache and Hurt of Loving an Addict

It doesn’t matter who you are, loving an addict is painful. You can be a spouse, brother, sister, girlfriend or parent, it hurts just the same to watch someone you love become nothing but an empty shell of a person. I have known no greater heartache than that of being an addict’s mom. My heart …

An Open Letter To My Drug Addicted Son

I remember the day I found out I was pregnant with you. I was told I wouldn’t be able to have children.    I was excited and in shock. I carried you for 9 months.  I felt your first movement of life. And when you were born, it was the happiest day of my life. …

Childhood trauma and the ACE score

When you go to meetings, IOP or counseling, there is a lot of talk about childhood traumas as a cause of addiction. The ACE study ( Adversed Childhood Experiences) formulated a score to access one’s risk of addiction. Factors such as: Having an addicted parent Having a parent that’s been incarcerated Being sexual abused Having …

Two deaths in two days

Sorry I haven’t been around. Life has been stressful. This past week, I’ve spent several days in ICU waiting room with my oldest, dearest best friend. Her beautiful boy was hit by a drunk driver a week ago. He was on a motorcycle and was wearing a helmet. Today he joined the angels in heaven. …

Hope for the Best~ Prepare for the Worst

So it’s been 6 days since my son overdosed and was REVIVED with 3 doses of narcan.  I am hopeless.  I try to have hope but he makes it  impossible.  He is in denial. Doesn’t think he has a problem. Refuses any and all help. He has this all under control. It was just an accident. …